Why'd you only call me when you're lonely?

i'm trying to forget the way your lips felt on mine but it's hard when i see you every day. i was thinking about hawaii this morning as i stepped into the shower and later you told me that in march you're going there. i hope you have a good time and i will miss you but i miss a lot of people and it's not like you'll miss me because we're nothing remember? just friends. it seems stupid even to me that i have to remember that every time my mind wanders and thinks of you because this evening while i was sitting on your couch you came up behind me and put your chin on my shoulder and called me baby. that's never happened before and i didn't even realize it had happened until later and now it takes every inch of self-control i posses to keep from thinking about it all the time. I need someone to slice me open and take out every piece of you and remove your name from my brain because you are like a disease running through my veins. I just want you to leave me alone because you hurt me but i want you closer and i don't think i know what i want i just know that you're lonely and i'm lonely and maybe we should be lonely together.


-a.m.l