Dancing in the Rain

Tuesday, November 26, 2013

Why'd you only call me when you're lonely?

i'm trying to forget the way your lips felt on mine but it's hard when i see you every day. i was thinking about hawaii this morning as i stepped into the shower and later you told me that in march you're going there. i hope you have a good time and i will miss you but i miss a lot of people and it's not like you'll miss me because we're nothing remember? just friends. it seems stupid even to me that i have to remember that every time my mind wanders and thinks of you because this evening while i was sitting on your couch you came up behind me and put your chin on my shoulder and called me baby. that's never happened before and i didn't even realize it had happened until later and now it takes every inch of self-control i posses to keep from thinking about it all the time. I need someone to slice me open and take out every piece of you and remove your name from my brain because you are like a disease running through my veins. I just want you to leave me alone because you hurt me but i want you closer and i don't think i know what i want i just know that you're lonely and i'm lonely and maybe we should be lonely together.

-a.m.l

Wednesday, November 20, 2013

/sigh/

It's been an off day.

I feel happy but i've become progressively more lonely as the day has gone by. Right now i'm cuddled up in my blanket fort and i feel safe and I don't want to leave for a few days. I just want some time to be alone and think and read books and cry. Honestly, I don't think that's asking much.

Tuesday, November 19, 2013

I'm so over you.

Dear Boy,

I'm really ever so sorry for getting over you.
(No i'm not)
I should still be sitting in my room listening to adele and crying over what might have been.
(who are we kidding, i did that for five minutes and felt like a stereotype. Bryan Adams is more my style.)
It's just that you broke my heart.
(yeah right. i feel so broken. so incomplete. can you taste my sarcasm yet?)
I'll probably eat ice cream and watch the notebook for the next three weeks while my life spirals out of control. Why couldn't you love me?
(have you gotten the fact that i'm over you yet?)

It's funny how you can think you know how you'll react in a certain situation. I used to think that if things didnt work out between me and this aforementioned male, i would be shattered and spend the rest of my life crying under a blanket. Haha. As if.

I know he doesn't like me now, and honestly i feel super chill about it. Yeah it sucked to hear but now it's like "yo if you don't like me as more than a friend thats totally cool." ~~Now watch me looking super fantastic amazing every day in the hallway and i will smile at you and your confidence in your decision will crumble a little more every week.~~

This post is making me sound bitter and angry and i'm not. I feel awesome and happy and adorable. Boys are dumb ~~sometimes~~ a lot of the time and i highly reccomend that every girl listen to Natalia Kills, put on red lipstick and get out into the world like the fabulous hottie you are.

DON'T LET BOYS BRING YOU DOWN.

If they don't want you, they're not worth wasting mascara over anyways. (Because lets be serious, that crap is expensive)

Remember babes,

Kiss Kiss,

Bang Bang.

Monday, November 18, 2013

well, here i stand once more

cupcakes, old and new, i've come to say hello again.

i'm terribly sorry for my long and unexplained absence. i drifted away and changed so much i didn't think i would ever come back. yet, here i am.

so i suppose i am back and i'll try to stay, and i hope you can be patient with me because i'm really not the same person that i was before.

this is me saying "goodbye, hello, i'm home again."

-aven meeka lee